Sorry to have kept my fans waiting...

HA! Right?

Okay--fahreals though, I will definitely make more of an effort to get on this thing. I really should take more pride in my forms of self expression. Plus my main squeeze has anchored away and joined the Navy...so alas I sleep in his bed in his room in his parents house all by myself. Oh the interesting waters of life we all sail.

Lets talk about bullshit. I am tired of it. I am tired of peoples bullshit. Amidst my loss I have almost take solitude in my own icy fortress of reflection on the people who are in my life. And straight up. I am either TIRED of a lot of people or I am OVER individuals complexes and they way they execute their friendship. Everyone is so fucking deluted, DELUSIONAL and into their own psychie that the mere thought of effort or at least contribution and consideration is utterly impossible to comprehend. For the friends that I CALL constantly. That I INVITE here or there constanstly. That I DRIVE AROUND constantly. That I go above and beyond to let them know how I feel about them and what their friendship means to me and I get back NOTHING of the sort. To the friends who cant even MAKE ME A BIRTHDAY present (I know your broke....but fuck- a homemade card letting me know how much you appreciate my friendship wouldn't hurt).To the friends who indirectly make me feel insecure and inadequite for my skin color. TO THE PEOPLE WHO CAN'T EVEN BRING THEMSELVES TO COMMUNICATE WHEN I AM IN THIS TIME OF NEED! I am spending my time with thoes that are REALLLY reaching out and putting some fucking elbow grease into this thing. My eyes are open. And I will call you out on your bullshit because I have sat back long enough letting everyone walk the fuck over me and dissapoint me time and time again.

This is a new era. I have some priorities. And as much as I do love some of you- I just can no longer make you one...because you really have never made me one.

To the friends who this does not apply to----I owe my undying love, and promise you the friendship I am always capable of and will sustain it 100% because YOU have :]

OVER AND OUT.